weeeee~ new layout again! im so much more satisfied with this one :D altho it doesnt have a picture of a star, i tried to put one in but it look better like this so.. let it be!

i came across this

"Hiding your hurt only intensifies it. Problems grow in the dark and vecome bigger and bigger, but when exposed to light of truth, they shrink"
"Whatever you cant talk about is already out of control in your life. If you could handle it on your own, you would have already done so. But you cant. Willpower and personal resolutions arent enough"

well, i guess this is so true. but since it already say is things you cant talk about. so if you dont talk about it. who's gonna help you? who's gonna know that there's something wrong with you. By observing you? most probably they wont notice either. furthermore looks can be deceiving. i may smile and look happy on the outside but feeling terrible inside. who knows? only myself.

sometimes is not about not letting people help solve the problem, but at times it's jus hard to initiate to ask for help. i dont know, at least i feel this way. maybe becos most people have the thinking that im forever that happy go lucky girl.

i can never forget what my friend once said "She(ME) will be the last person to undergo depression" since she's so confident that i'll never undergoes depression, how am i gonna let her know the weak side of me? how am i gonna ask for help? i dont know. AND IM NOT SAYING IM DEPRESSED ! actually i dont know either. o.o