today job ended. worked ot till 2000 and went for dinner with workin fren, pan and js. i'll miss the supervisor and the people there. but i guess it's time for me to move on in life.

i wonder what kind of impression of me i left them with. i dont know, but most of the times, when im with them, i just dont feel like my usual self. like im trying hard to be someone esle instead. ive no idea. maybe the impression i leave them with is not a pleasant one. oh well~ forget it bah.

today chatted about 'O' level result, about our brothers and sisters result, they make phone calls to enquire about jobs. chatted about why some of us couldnt communicate with our younger siblings. oh well, through all these chatting, it suddenly make me wonder, where do my strength lies? what am i strong in? i dont know and to me, it seems like practically nothing. i cant say im good in studies cause i score 18 points for 'O' levels while my sis score 14 points. i cant say im good in sport becos i practically didnt master anything at all. i cant say im good at gaming because there's so many other friends who is so much better than me. i cant say im good at cooking cause i never cook. i cant say im good at housekeeping cause i dont usually do housework

i've failed as a daughter
i've failed as a student
i've failed as a sister
i've failed as a friend

i dont know, i ponder for like the whole day yet i find myself, useless and poor at all things.

maybe someone can tell me, where's my strength? what am i good in? please?