Thanks for writing out a full long post just for the sake of telling me things. your post somewhat say out things im thinking yet not mentioning. Yes, there's too many cheesy lines i've heard from chain mails or from the mouths of friends, till sometimes i really wonder if they mean exactly what they said. but i still can feels, can sense people's real concern. i know you really meant what you say.

yes,i wish someone will just give me a warm hug and tell me everything will be okay. tell me everything gonna be alright. Wake up and it's another sunny day. Everything will go away after a deep sleep. tell me all these isnt true, tell me i manage to make it. but it's all not possible and ive to learn to accept it.

i'll try my best to get over it, but im sure it wont be so soon. probably only till posting results come out then i'll recover. who knows. i dont know